Caribbean living with a side of Anxiety Disorder
A little bit of Thursday wisdom by one of my favourite authors/ power women.
Just LIVE and do what feels right to you.
-M 😉
Last year I participated in my first 5K for an amazing cause and in remembrance of my aunt and my closest’s loved ones who had departed due to Cancer. This October, this will be my profile picture on Facebook, because it’s Breast Cancer Awareness Month and because I know there’s people who are close to me who need the encouragement.
I have hope that one day we no longer have to lose our loved ones thanks to this awful illness.
#InOctoberWeWearPink
And repeat after me…
Good girls go to heaven,
And bad girls go everywhere
And tonight I will love you
And tomorrow you won’t care
Precious little diamond
I leave it all to you
Precious little diamond
Let it come to you
You’re in love with something bigger than love
You believe in something stronger than trust
Wanderlust
-M.
Sept 3rd and Oct 7th
En route to month #3 🙂
Basically, because Madame Piaf is everything and this song is an epic battle cry and because French is sultry and so am I…
Avec mes souvenirs
J’ai allumé le feu
Mes chagrins, mes plaisirs
Je n’ai plus besoin d’eux !
Balayées les amours
Et tous leurs trémolos
Balayés pour toujours
Je repars à zéro
Non, rien de rien
Non, je ne regrette rien
Ni le bien qu’on m’a fait
Ni le mal; tout ça m’est bien égal !
Non, rien de rien
Non, je ne regrette rien
Car ma vie, car mes joies
Aujourd’hui, ça commence avec toi
Au revoir mes amours,
-M.
Even though tonight you don’t feel sad- especially because tonight you don’t feel sad, you had another special weekend, you accomplished goals and you feel so good about yourself, especially because of all of that, you should remember your darkest moments. Remember how they marked you, feel how the despair left scars inside you and how for so many nights you felt hopeless and drained of tears…void…remember all of that, so that you never forget how you managed to crawl your way out of that tunnel and even though you’re not all the way out, every day you see the light and feel its warmth approaching and you’re almost there. You can feel it.
Always remember that you have are a beautiful soul and your body is a great tool- it’s healthy and although some days you feel unattractive – you know what’s up…you’re flawless and not like Queen Bey, but like Maria-Steph…you’re flawless because you are kind and loving and you give a damn and now you’re finally learning to put yourself first. You’ve made it far, you should be proud, but you should also keep working towards your goals, because you made a promise that you must absolutely keep.
Remember the impact that stars have in your life, remember how you have told every single person who has touched your heart how incredibly amazing space and stars are to you and how they have thought of ways to give you the closest they can think of stars. Remember that people care and cared enough to make you feel that special, but most importantly, remember how when they have left, you kept the stars and used them to brighten up the darkness left behind. You were resourceful and compassionate with yourself.
When you’re sad, remember:
‘Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light; I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night’
-M.
Having one of those days in which you KNOW you’re part of the world and you’re surrounded by people, but you FEEL like you’re the only person on Earth and it’s okay…you crave the silence, the conversations you have with yourself in your head are significantly more interesting than the ones you could have with the outside world today anyway.
I’m in my office, with my grey hoody on, an oversized cup of black coffee and headphones on. I walk silently down the halls so I can go unnoticed, I make myself tinier behind my computer and all of that just because I strongly feel the urge to just BE today, to be alone, to feel alone, to not talk non sense, to be quiet and still…
We really need mental health days off…like ASAP.
I could be working so much better from home today.
My need for solitude salutes yours.
-M.
I’ve had a thing for full moons since the summer of my sixteenth birthday, when someone explained to me the magic behind a full moon and the power it had to upset a bit the balance of things…apparently, it makes you freer- in my mind this always looked like a scene from Shakespeare’s A Midsummer Night’s Dream- and it’s fantastic.
Those of you who have followed me for a while now, know about my struggle with change and how I was so afraid of it, to me, change entailed all negative meanings…now, not so much. I actually BEGGED the supermoon for some more change in my life! It was an amazing sort of little ceremony with two of my (newest, yet rapidly becoming dearest) friends. We had dinner under the moonlight and watched the whole eclipse by the pool and in a moment of silence, I felt that our intentions were strangely deeply connected. I think we all wanted new things to start happening.
I’ve been ready for quite a while, but under that SUPER RED FULL moon, I sent all my wishes out to the universe and I can now feel how I’m on the very verge of something amazing happening…Just today I had a very clear sign of the power of good intentions and actions!
Thank you moon, thank you universe for the new blessings coming into my life.
It’s going down for real,
-M.
…and I don’t really care if nobody else believes, cause I still got a lot of fight left in me.
Today, 193 global leaders will commit to 17 Global Goals in order to eradicate extreme poverty, fight inequality and injustice and fix climate change, all within 15 years- As excited as I am, I am also devastaded as I actually got a complimentary access to the UN Social Good Summit because I am a ‘Our Future World’ ambassador…but guess where I am today? My desk…daydreaming about the great experience I’m missing out on right now because I hadn’t applied for my US Visa.
Needless to say I am applying for my visa next week now…this won’t happen twice. NOPE.
PS: I hope this time we actually do a better job at achieving those goals.
-M
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